8 years ago today i took my last drink. Finally ended an 8 day beer and liquor binge. My brain went haywire and i didn’t sleep during any of that time. Didn’t eat. Was told i had organ failure but the doctors never elaborated any further to me. Got lectured at 33 years old from them like i was a child and i pretty much deserved all of it. I had a 50/50 chance over the following 72 hours of making it and regardless of the hallucinations and voices and severe pain throughout my body, i accepted what was to come. I had to face my mortality and face GOD for my wrongs. The stuff i experienced over the next few days as well as the 8 days prior are what nightmares are made of. I went to he|| and back. I recall waking up attached to some machine and hearing a nurse tell someone in the room that they were expecting my body to give out. I truly broke my own heart and hurt a lot of people along the way as well. If you’re on this app and struggling, don’t be afraid to reach out for help. Tomorrow would never be happening if i didn’t speak up and admit that i had to change. My legs and arms barely worked and my thoughts were mush but i laid on the concrete for hours until i was able to make the phone call to get me where i needed to be. I didn’t care anymore about what anyone thought of me and for once it was for the right reasons. Let them talk. Let them gossip. I’ll be celebrating something tomorrow that no one ever gave me a chance at doing. Go to meetings. Go to rehab. Go somewhere as long as it means you’re getting better and you’re doing it for you. 
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Very powerful, thanks for sharing 
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Happy eight years of truly living!!!
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Thanks for sharing! And you're right. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks!!
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