So when I left rehab I moved 3 hrs away from my hometown, and family, because all I know of my hometown is drugs, and people that are still using. I have been clean for a year and 9 months and my dad asked me if My son And I wanted to move home, and I could go back to school, he would help with my toddler.. I really want too. I want to be around my family, have my son grow up with his grandparents and uncles, and aunt, I want to go back to school and help my community be better but I’m TERRIFIED that I’m going to go home, and relapse. Is that normal? Does anyone think I’d be making a mistake by going home? I’ve built a recovery system and friends out here. I’ve built a life out here. But I’m missing my dad, my mom and siblings. I feel lost no matter what I chose and I just need advice, or an outside point of view.
You're sober today because you choose to stay sober. If you pick up a drink or a drug it's because you chose to pick it up.
Having said that, nobody knows you better than you.
You say you've been sober for 1 year and 9 months. That's a long time in the world of addiction. I would say that the obsession is gone. And you're smart enough now and have enough time behind you to know that if you pick up again what the result is going to be. It's called believing the LIE; that this time, everything will be okay. But it never is, is it?
You're going to have to start all over and then you're going to have more guilt to carry with you. I don't think that you want that. Everywhere you go throughout the world there's going to be drugs and alcohol readily available to you. So I don't think we can simply hide under a rock the rest of our lives so that we don't get exposed to any of it.
Just get up in the morning and pray and you know what you have to do everyday. Your phone is also a great instrument for communicating with people.
I didn't get sober so I could spend the rest of my life hiding under a rock. I got sober because I wanted to live life. The world is yours you just can't drink or use drugs.
The link below will take you to a great app for finding meetings all over the country whether you use Android or Apple.
Thank you so much. I really needed to hear that. Opened up my view on my situation and just life in general. I very much appreciate it
You're welcome