I still haven't managed to stay clean for more then a week... but I have made all the arrangments and set myself up to go to Rehab (will be the 3rd time in my life. I know they are extremely helpful for me and my recovery :D) Hopefully my start date will be in the next 4 weeks or even less! 
Pray to the Universe I get in on the next programs start date 
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Until then I do have lots of help and resources in place. I know I'll be able to get and stay sober before then (well I have faith atleast..) and so the start of my new life will have already begun 
"Oh, Universe... please help guide my soul through this fight. I want the life of my dreams!! I don't want to hurt my family anymore. I want to be there and grow old with them and be the family member they deserve and they are supposed to have. Please help me along this journey. I love you. Thank you. 
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