Life is stressful enough.
In my addiction, I used to create stress that did not even need to exist. I would lead myself down paths of self destruction and self sabotage, tearing apart relationships with everyone and everything around me.
Today I have to stop and ask myself a simple question. Why add more stress to my life when life is already stressful enough?
Recovery has taught me something I did not understand for a long time. When my thinking starts going sideways, I do not have to handle it alone anymore. I can reach out to my higher power, my sponsor, and the people in the program who walk this spiritual path with me.
The truth is those self destructive behaviors are still somewhere inside me, waiting for the moment I start feeding them again. But today I do not have to feed them. I do not have to act on every thought that crosses my mind.
Instead I can pause, pray, reach out, and redirect my thinking.
For years I believed chaos was just who I was. Today I know it was the disease trying to keep me sick.
Recovery gave me something better. A new way to live.
As long as I stay connected to my higher power and the program, I never have to go back to the man I used to be.
Much love
Christopher W
