I know addiction is insanity, so why cant I stop? I put this poison in my body, knowing my liver is shot. I am on 20+ meds that all state " no drinking on this medication " , I still do it. My withdrawals make me deathly ill, and one day it will take my life.
I have severe self loathing for the reasons stated above.
I just want it to stop!!!!
Will it stick this time? I say that to myself with each sober stint....
God, please give me progress, strength, and a beautiful life ahead.
I cant live in this reoccurring nightmare ever again!
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The reason that it was difficult for me to commit to quitting alcohol was because I LOVE the feeling it gives me. I feel like the world is shut out, and none of my worries matter, and I can feel an emotion other than frustration and boredom.
However, what I noticed was over the years, I was MORE afraid of what would happen in my life if I DIDNT stop, vs how afraid I was OF stopping.
If I mess up, I’ll forgive myself and try again. The most important part is not allowing a mistake to become an Avenue to justify giving up. Keep trying.
Message me if you like. I’m sure I’m naive about your situation in some ways if you’d like to delve deeper. Good luck, and let’s all do this!
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