I lay here and scroll through the app reading deep into everyone’s posts. Then I find myself still taking a shot of fireball after reading and thinking about my problems what’s wrong with me. It’s like I can’t stop even though I know I have done it before. The Only people drinking around me is my mom and Boyfriend does it really take not bein around them at all to stop this feeling? I’m closest to them out of everyone in my life but they are the biggest drinkers in my life I just want to be sober and be able to be around them and enjoy my time without drinking ughh back to day 1. Pray for me please (I’m starting to feel like I’m using them as an excuse for every-time I drink knowing darn well I’m making the decision to drink it. But it’s constantly around me with them.
Two things to ponder 
the only thing you may have to change to be sober and healthy is everything and just pick a date and do not pick up no matter what! I’ve been where you are and it’s a tough spot but you are worth sobriety and healthy living
Well, sounds like you have a choice. Stay sober or keep using. Change can be hard. Yet, remaining around those who constantly use won’t make those changes happen. Selfish program.
Unfortunately I've been where you're at and tried to make it work staying in my household; but my husband still drinks. I had to remove myself completely to really start over. It's hard being away from the closest family you have, but your health and your well being should come first. That doesn't mean you can't see them as I still see my husband and dog several times a week. Ultimately, you may have to make that choice... I wish you well 