Had an epiphany while getting a massage. I was praying during it asking the same thing I always do.. “god let me hear what you want me to hear, see what you want me to see, and be what you want me to be..”
Then I mediated just listening to the sounding and letting my body feel all the feels. And a thought came to my head - during rehab when people asked me why I was getting sober - I would say things like “well I have been depressed for a long time, i want to work thru my trauma, I want a family one day, I want to own a business, I want to get closer with my family”, etc. etc.
A lot of “I’s”.
Now 65+ days into sobriety I’m learning the reason I’m getting sober so I can get closer to Him. Through him I will best achieve His will and plan set out before me. The combination of what is behind me, in front of me, and in the future for me. Which, as He says and history tells me, will always reveal itself over time when I’m present enough in my walk of faith to listen.
Happy Sunday, Loosid Fam 
