This past week has been an emotional roller-coaster. I have 56 days clean and now I am feeling since the drugs is out my system and it really socks. I'm dealing with a family court case that is so hard to deal with. To know I have to surrender to the fact I'm powerless over my addiction is one thing but to surrender to the court system when I turned my kids over instead of them taking them from me was a big pill to swallow. The resource team I have is amazing and by the grace of God they helping me is keeping me from losing my mind and doing something Crazy that can have me lose everything I worked for so for. I swear most of these days it only God that kept me clean and sober. Cause I can't stress how emotional I been and not for the best
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Thank you for sharing. I can really relate to the feelings of being powerless over some current challenging situations going on in my life. Although different than yours, the feelings are similar. I always marveled at those that were able to remain sober thru trying times. Yet, here we are…doing just that m. It’s uncomfortable as heck, but we are doing it! I’m very grateful for the AA program. Left to my own resources, I’d be getting drunk and high, and making a complete mess of my life. Keep living in the solution ODAAT
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I can def remember my first year was so emotional and especially fighting for ur babies u kno, my mom had me n and outta court for my girls.. and I was always crying honestly, but I just kept saying I’m so much closer I can’t stop now it’d cause so much more trauma for my kids to watch me quit on them again u kno.. u just gotta keep fighting
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