Loneliness and temporary feelings that I've wasted my life........those words were written on day 7 of sobriety and day 1 of joining Loosid. Today (day 12 or thereabouts) I rejoice in the mighty name of Jesus, and adorn the mighty armor of God...
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What can you do today that's productive?
Join the zoom meeting on here if I know what time itd at
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I can SO relate. I'm sorry you're having these feelings. I grieve time wasted a lot (Jail, hospital stays, one lost marriage and just flat out not remembering chunks of my life). I recently heard on a podcast that thinking about the past is guilt, worrying about the future is anxiety, try to live in the present. It's a beautiful thing that our lives are always changing. You've got this 
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I really like that it is so true. Fear is something that hasn't even happened yet and anxiety is just worrying about something that hasn't happened yet and and fear and anxiety feed off each other they're almost the same thing. You know the one thing that can kill fear stop it dead in its tracks is love. When you have loved running through all your veins pump through your heart it's impossible to be worried about something or anxious about something it cancels all that out cuz it's such a feeling of happiness and completeness that you can get and that's not just love for a person that's love for whatever you feel like loving nature pets now it's easier said than done. And it's hard to get your body to completely give in and feel that way. But it sure is a great feeling while it lasts the key is keeping it going
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GOD is love
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Do you have a gym? I find good community at the gym.
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Joshua, you may not realize it, but you brother, are, just the confirmation I needed. I have been considering joining a gym, i just have a huge dislike for egotistical people. And fear i wont be able to focus. However at this point im quickly realizing just how much changing of habits is needed
Give yourself some grace, you know we tend to be our own worse enemy. One of the hardest things to do is forgive yourself of all the self harm you have done to yourself. I had to come to the understanding I cannot change the past, all I can do is accept it and start letting it go. We have to accept the unchanging past, the changed present, and the forever changing future.
Thank you...
Amen! Get in His Word, get with or talk to a strong Christian brother and make plans for your future =HOPE 
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Blessing of joy and peace fill your heart my sister...
Wasn't a total waste if we learned something even if its what not to do. We can chalk that up as a win and move forward a little bit smarter than we once were.
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I have had these same feelings. It's tough looking back at all your regrets. But that pain brought you here.....and that is not nothing. One day at a time, one small step at a time.
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What is your purpose in life?
To share the Gospel of Christ in places your everyday Christian wouldn't go nor understand
I have found some of the kindest people at the gym. Of course there is always one with a big ego but if you haven't gone you won't know what works for you.
The only thing you can control is the person in your hoola hoop. Nothing or no one else!