I've been through the 12 steps in the past and I am truly looking forward to doing them again with a new view and a new sponsor. I see different things now as I've evolved over the years and of course the journey is never-ending. I am grateful for getting through all the things from my past (the childhood years and the beginning of my addictions) with my first sponsor and that was a long, deep, dark road to travel. But this time around I get the honor of peeling the onion back on my relationship issues, my loner issues. My last few years of being out really shined some light on my inability to connect with other humans along with using alcohol and drugs to make false connections. Looking back with a clear mind now I was super lonely and I'm learning I don't trust people and I don't allow people to get too close because I don't like creating (gulp) BOUNDARIES! Ewwww
I am looking forward to continuing my sobriety and really digging deeper. I love what the program(s) can do to help you grow and learn more than any other program(s)/therapy can (in my humble opinion). I am starting to enjoy the Refuge Recovery program and also have good ol trusty AA on my side. This stuff is gold. Hope you are finding the light in your darkness out there too! 
here's to ODAAT cheers!
Sounds like you’re on track for success! I’m working on staying true to boundaries as well. What I’m finding is that being steadfast in my values has created more success in all my relationships, especially with myself. In the past I would allow people to push my boundaries thinking it would make my relationships better and more trusting if I was willing to compromise, I was completely wrong.
Great post Cece! Recovery is a journey not a destination. I was introduced to AA in 1989 as a young person. I did some work at that time and stayed sober (dry) for many years (25 years). However, I stopped working on my recovery and got into a rut after about year 10. I became very disconnected from life, and slowly became more and more irritable, restless, and discontent. Ultimately this all lead me to escape my reality and look for happiness in all the wrong things ( material, relationships, etc). This to lead to an extremely painful relapse, and a spiritual and emotional bottom. Once again AA was there to pick me up and love me. With AA as my foundation, similarly to you I’ve added so many more tools to my recovery this time. For me, AA has opened the door to finding my own very personal higher power. For me, I enjoy expanding my recovery with other resources than just AA. I’m still involved in the fellowship and got to 3-4 meetings a week, but I find so much value in supplementing my recovery with outside sources that help me heal, and learn to accept and love myself. As I do this, it becomes easier to connect to others and have real relationships. Thanks for sharing 
