I have been a chronic relapser and am six months sober. I work from home, I do not have a car or drive right now (yes, alcohol related) and am working very hard to stay “in the middle of the beam”. I am looking to have one-on-one connection and accountability from another person in recovery. I think being able to “see” someone and them see me will help. I do have a therapist so I am not looking for that role. Just a connection with another person strong in their recovery that has walked the walk. And fallen. And gotten back up.
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Go to in person meetings if you can.
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I’m new on here and would love to connect. I think you have to accept me as a friend first in order to dm. I’m a single Mom,
too. Keep going girl!
Just out of curiosity, are you involved with AA at all? A sponsor could be just what you need.
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Yes, I have been connected in AA. I have had sponsor and worked the steps. I am new to my area and do not drive which makes going to meetings in person very difficult. I need to find a new sponsor and I am hoping I can find one that can connect through ZOOM or the like.
I'm also a lawyer, so if work related stuff gets to you I'd be happy to talk. Here in MA there's a support group for lawyers called Lawyer's Concerned for Lawyers ("LCL") to which a portion of our bar dues go. There was something similar when I practiced in NY, I just wasn't ready to get sober yet. Looks like you're in TX. Is that where you're licensed? If so, is there an equivalent ot similar suppprt group that could help?
Working from home resulted in my drinking a ton before I got sober. I am so happy to be able to go to an office everyday.
I will look into finding something similar here in Texas. I hope I can connect online to it. Thanks for the information!
U are really looking for a sponsor, keep searching you will be successful ,I promise you !
Hang in there....
I totally got what you're feeling. I was a chronic relapser for many years. I got sober in 2002 and stayed sober almost 9 years and then I did what I call "believing the LIE" which took me back out there for another 3 years. I have now been back for almost 9 years again.
I don't really get Cravings anymore but every so off and I get that stinking thinking and think that maybe just one will be okay. I always play the scene forward. It might make me feel good for a while but I know sooner or later I'll be right back at the beginning again carrying around more shame knowing that I can accomplished absolutely nothing.
I have a wife now that I've been married to for almost 4 years and the dumbest thing I could ever do is pick up a drink and think that everything will be okay this time because it never is.
Don't believe the lie Julie.
And keep doing what you're doing. Message me anytime.
Thanks for all of the supportive replies. Each and every one helps. My biggest struggle now is not a craving, but the debilitating thoughts and feelings when my mind reflects back on all of the consequences and losses due to my drinking. It takes my breath away and saddens me deeply.
BUT I get up, re-center myself and move forward making a better day today, so I can start looking backwards and be proud of my choices and see tangible results.
And always remember, alcohol is not a refreshment. It is a drug.
Meetings help. We are all on here for the same reason. I am am only a week sober but having people to share with, talk when I need it has been a lifesaver.
I know from experience that if you contact your local A.A. group they can and will help get you to meetings if you ask. No license and no transportation is very common with newcomers to A.A. Your far from the first. Call AA central office and ask to get to a meeting.
“ I am responsible,
When anyone anywhere reaches out for help I want the hand of AA always to be there, and for that, I am responsible.”
Numbers on Bio hun.. but definitely message
Ha I'm in Woodville!!.. up by Livingston! Lived in the League City area for quite a while