i have 7 months sober… that’s the longest i’ve been sober since i started abusing drugs when i was 15 y/o. I thought this time around was different. The obsession and desire had gone away.
Well, lately the desire and constant thinking about smoking weed won’t leave my mind. For whatever reason i’m stuck in the thought to get high. I know it’s stupid but i’m getting g this urge to just give up.
Sobriety is so tough. The main thing stopping me is that i’ve created a life i want to live. I think i need to start going to bed earlier cos it’s always late at night i feel this urge.
Also, i switched stores i work at and the new coworkers all smoke weed…. and they smell like weed…. and they talk about smoking after work.
It’s very tempting and annoying.
It feels like wherever i turn there’s always at least one person who smokes. Im doing my best to distance myself but i also want to make connections with my new coworkers!!
My depression has also been creeping back up on me. Sometimes, i wish a plane would crash down into me.
Are you working a program of recovery?
Year one is rough.. I just try to keep in mind that eventually things will be better and I will feel better. But I’ll never get there if I relapse. Hope you feel better soon!
I understand exactly where you are at. You are doing such a good job by getting vulnerable and talking about it. Bravo to you. At 2 years i felt this way. I started going to more meetings again. I wrote a gratitude list a day and I prayed upon awakening and throughout the day. Slowly but surely i came back to my senses. But what was really important is that i wrote down all my fears in the moment and then asked myself which one of those has actually happened to me right now. it grounds me in the truth and not in the lies my head feeds me. Im here if you would like to chat or talk 
We must change our thinking 
change your life . I’m Michele 6 years Clean & Sober change the company you keep . Stay out of your head .Make the decision your done . Prayer & my relationship w God is what saved me 
I went after my Recovery harder than when I was in active addiction . I was so sick of my life with drugs & alcohol I was so ready for a change you can do this getting Clean & Sober has been the best decision I’ve ever made . We here in Recovery are here for those who even think they want Recovery I promise you it gets better just focus one minute one day at a time . Thank you for your time your in my prayers
We are all here to help,, reach out… helping you helps me♥️
it has gotten better !! and i have made the decision to not smoke but when it’s all around and all my coworkers get together to smoke. it’s the one way i know how to make friends and it’s very tough to make sober friends. it feels like everyone smokes weed now a days and they view it like it won’t hurt. thanks for your response !!
yup
i have multiple times… they are all stoners so they don’t care. im staying strong it’s a hard temptation to strain from. my brain tricks me and says one time won’t hurt and i’ll obsess over getting high to feel relaxed.
i do feel better and things are better that’s why my brain is trying to trick me and tell me it’s okay to start smoking. and this time you can control it and not be high 24/7…. it just feels like weed is all around me and so many people my age it’s all they do.
TWO, that sucks. It's hard, I know. I LOVE the smell ofnpot, the taste, heck, I have learned about horticulture for no other reason. I can't smoke bc it interferes with my medical and mental health care. I can't afford those problems. Also, my kids deserve better. Smoke inhalation ofnany kind is extremely bad for the circulatory system and pot morese than cigarettes even. The difference is not so apparent because most people don't smoke (essentially) a half a pack or a pack of joints a day. If they did, and their mind weren't clouded, they would possibly notice that their body was not working properly.
I have family members who smoke pot. This month I am over there for 18-36hrs a week, every week, helping out post-surgery. As with alcohol, I know I can't partake. I find something else to do when they are chiefin.
YOU GOT THIS! all it takes is will power, and I can tell you're there. Maybe further educate yourself on the health risks associated with smoke inhalation. Ask your co-workers to not have those discussions around you, as you are in active recovery.
i appreciate your words and thanks for sharing !!! im the same way- the smell, the taste, the ritual of packing the bowl… it’s all addicting.
i have told my coworkers and even manger that i am sober !! they said like wow that’s great but still talk about going home and kicking back to smoke.
Im feeling better today but there are moments where i still get bad urges. I also get so many dreams about using !!! sobriety is tough but worth it !!
Hello my friend, life is full of ups and downs as you no doubt already know first hand as I do. I sure hope a plane doesn't crash on you, and I'm glad you're here. I think that being sober can seem tough if we want to escape the tough stuff, but the fact is we are made to face adversity, and become stronger individually and together throughout our walk on this earth. Coworkers that are smoking the bud all the time are probably cool people, but you can see that what they are looking for from life isn't the same as what you are. Maybe you guys could go out to dinner weekly as a team; that would help avoid sitting around saying no to the bong, joint, blunt, etc and you could still build good relationships with them. Sending you the best wishes, you can always make the best choice.
thanks for sharing friend !!! i appreciate your words and support (＾ω＾)人(＾ω＾)
your right life is full of ups and downs and we are built to adapt!!
My program of recovery suggests that when I feel like picking up, talking with or working with another person in the program will help.
It goes on to suggest that I should be of service to someone expecting nothing in return. This helps me. It may help you.
Perhaps it’s the second item?
For me there’s a difference in being/spreading kindness and helping someone.
To help someone, first I have to stop the self centered thinking I usually have. Then I seriously think about someone I can help. Then take action on that.