I 100 percent have gotten away from meetings . I started off strong and now I feel the relationship trauma I’ve been through has made me pull away from everyone. I have a guy that comes back and breaks up with me every two weeks and leaves me lingering for hope - honestly it’s the rejection of things for me and remembering a time when we were ok and together for 5 months . It’s left me in a tailspin and unable to see myself as worthy or move on . Like I feel if I am not worthy of his love then what am I good for ?
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Try not to think too much into. Unfortunately sometimes things happen…. But they always happen for a reason!!
Keep your head up! Focus on yourself. 
The first thing that hit me when I read this was “have a guy that comes back and breaks up with me every 2 weeks and leaves me lingering for hope”. That may be true, but we need to focus on seeing it this way “I have a guy that I allow to come back every 2 weeks…”
This is the old you! You’re in recovery to rewire and make a new life for yourself. It’s not easy, and takes a lot of practice. This is your opportunity to practice it. Take responsibility for what you or do…or don’t do. This guy is not healthy for you. I don’t want to bash him, but just look at his actions. He has issues. He’s either not nice, or he’s sick and needs a lot of therapy. It’s not you! Get your tail back in the meetings and work on your recovery. You can do it. You deserve it. Good things will follow
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