I am grateful that the nifty hoodies/hats/and shirts I ordered from Loosid Shopping arrived….. well, some of it did anyway and I am TOTALLY in love with the items that arrived, ESPECIALLY because they are customized with my oh so VERY important ( to me) Sobriety Date and I really really think they are 
great 
The fit is perfect and i am GRATEFUL to be very loud and proud to wear clothing that tells anyone that is interested in reading the writing on my clothing that my sobriety date is 5/15/2022:bangbang:
It has been a challenge and I just can’t believe that ODAAT I have accomplished what it takes to be free of the misery that for me was everything-addiction. However, the date celebrates the biggest scariest player in my addiction struggle and that is my addiction to the life and soul stealing monster that is heroin. I NEVER EVER imagined in my wildest dreams that i would ever be alive and living life free of heroin….. and the really really mind blowing 
🥹 thing is that it has now been over 3 1/2 years and some 20 odd days( that info is exact on my sobriety tracker )that I haven’t used heroin AND/OR any other happiness robbers like alcohol, meth, cocaine, Xanax, and a plethora of other pharmaceutical drugs( pills, etc. ) since 5/15/2022. Actually, the date applies to heroin only because I quit the other various substances all at other times even longer ago, only when I would drop a different substance there was always another one to take its place…… so the date applies to absolute and complete abstinence from EVERYTHING , the last player being heroin. I never ever in a zillion years or even in a split second thought that I would be able to kick the biggest and scariest 
monster 
called heroin, horse, puddle of mud, soul thief, deceptively warm blanket buffer, my get right medicine, brown sugar, I even called it my favorite feeling ever, …… it had a lot of names, but in the end it was HEROIN, end of story and I never thought I wanted to live without it, until I didn’t 
and then began the years long battle of wanting to quit but never ever getting past 1-3 days of trying to just 
stop using that God-awful soul killing monster:japanese_goblin: by myself, I never one single time was able to NOT go and get the only thing that stopped the pain, and a pain that is unlike anything I have experienced in this life. I wouldn’t wish the pain of “ going cold turkey” on a single solitary soul or creature that lives and breathes…. For me it was truly IMPOSSIBLE Unless you have tried to quit chasing the dragon, shooting up the most incredible instant fix, snorting the powder or making a “ heroin nose spray” you don’t , ( CANNOT) get your mind around the most god forsaken pain that exists….. that being said, I GRATEFULLY have never suffered from cancer or any other pain that comes ftom an illness, so I mean no disrespect to folks that have experienced greater pain than the mind bending pain of trying to quit using the brown/ white devil called heroin. If there is a pain that surpasses going cold turkey from the opiate heroin, well then dear God, I am heart broken 
❤🔥:broken_heart: for any human or living and breathing creature that has experienced what has been FOR ME, the scariest, meanest, uncaring, …. I can’t think of enough words to remotely begin to articulate the severity of the excruciating pain of getting off of heroin without treatment, or alone, or cold turkey, etc.
….I believe, it is NOT possible.
ANYWAYYYYYY, all of that flooded out of me( thank you for “listening “ or reading my words ) with me being clear that MY sobriety date 5/15/2022 is what my absolute clean and sober date is….. and since getting treatment to be heroin free, being free of the last substance that was destroying my life….. I just wanted to be completely honest and crystal clear of why the day 5/15/2022 is worth putting on clothing I wear, to me 🥹:muscle:t3:
….. like I mentioned earlier, I quit a WHOLE lot of other substances that robbed me of my true, real, and to me a worth it life 🥹:exploding_head:🦸🏻♀:two_hearts:
So my grateful post is that I am super duper grateful ( and really really joy filled) that my first 
box of outloud and customized items with my sobriety date makes me GRATEFUL due to the fact that I am sooooo immensely proud of 5/15/2022( at 8:15 AM) 🥹:muscle:t3:
. Grateful beyond all get out, for the arrival of my FIRST delivery of a box that is 1 of 2 and to think about the fact that ANOTHER package is on the wayyyy….. well it makes me giddy, like a little girl on Chistmas when I sneak down to try to bust Santa and see the bike that in a mere few hours I will be riding because I asked Santa Claus for a bike with a banana seat for Christmas that year and I SEE the bike with a banana seat that I assume ( as a child does) is MINE, well, because Iwas the only daughter of 3 daughters that ASKED specifically for my bike to have a banana seat…. Sooooo its gotta be mine, (WOW I just totally digressed:joy: )
🥹 GRATEFUL beyond belief that my CUSTOMIZED hoodie and other items have arrived and I get to display my sobriety date to the world:bangbang:
G R A T E F U L