Lying to myself is not the extent of it! Being involved, attending meetings, service commitments, being diligent about what it is that i need to do to for my recovery, as well as doing what i can to help others with thiers, all sounds very good, and in almost all instances, is just that! However, my secrets are keeping me sick! I have done all of this, and then some, but i havent actually been honest, im sad to say, that im still not clean! Its horrible, and im ashamed, and there are zero excuses that i would call remotely close enough to make it all better! Im an addict, still, and i will always be, but i never expected to be in a position such as this, which is by far, less than desireable, besides inexcusable. Short of the all to familiar, “just stop”, or “dont use”, can somebody please give me some insight on how i can actually get clean, so i dont live this charade, and decieve the people who are all in all the time for me, so that i can truly be the man that i portray myself to be, and give back what has been given to me so freely?!?!
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Stick with the winners.if you want to win so be a winner.no excuse period. Win- win again.