I can’t quit screaming and cussing at my kids and husband. I am a good mother, but my fuse is short. So short the littlest things set me off. I quickly apologize and the usually accept it. I can’t help but feel I’m messing them up. My mother was an alcoholic and crack addict. I don’t ever remember her screaming at me like this. I’ve gave up all the drugs and alcohol for my children. Why can’t I give up this temper!?
Sincerely,
One mad mama
I think you are alotted some temper with that many kids lol. There is a term called a "dry drunk" where you exhibit some behaviors you had whilst sober. That may be goin on but I'm not expert in that area.
There's always, as the Eskimo mother says to her infant, "Guusfraba" .... lol
Touché lol we do have a lot of kids.
I am a mom of only 3 and I have lost my temper plenty of times when I lived a completely sober life. Stress does that and while we love our children, they bring stress and that’s the truth.
I think a lot of us in recovery end up struggling with this issue. Believe me, I was scared of myself last summer. Be kind to yourself. You deserve that. Journaling tends to help with pent up emotions it could help with anger.
Maybe try telling the kids hang tight, go find a quiet spot (as quiet a spot as you can find, considering 
) and write out the angry words you want to say to them in that moment. Then ehem “refine/rephrase” it, and see what that does in the long term. (No kids just speaking on the irritability/anger)
Good idea! Thanks for the suggestion
Amen to that
Beautiful Family, stop breathe and trust the process. When this happens try your best to say ok what’s my part. Bring God into your life and you will have so much more peace in your life 
Learn how to say "I'm sorry". You'll he saying it less
as time goes
on.
With the hubby..tell hom how
mich you love hom and need his support
and you meed
him as a
cheerleader
for you on this. He will at some
point be jealous because there are fuys around. It happens. Jist make sire to ober tell him how
much you appreciate
his support and of course you are
always faithful. He will at
some point complain you are
always going to meetings. Tell him you jeed this for the first year. There are
early morning and noon meetings as
well as evenings. You can make timing adjustments. All these thimgs come up in the first year.
Eyes on the prize! Remember you didn't just hurt you. It may not be a Hallmark moment every
day. It will however get better.
Do your part.
Don't drink or get high. Be a better person even if you fake it sometimes.
better
