Finished the week strong with a Friday night speaker meeting. Was AA/Alanon mixture so my daughter came with me. It was hard to walk back through those doors and admit I had relapsed. But I did it. Maybe through tears of shame, guilt, and embarrassment, but I did it. Traded my wet chip in for a dry one and recommitted publicly to my sobriety. I am emotionally exhausted, but it feels good. Starting over is hard. But accountability feels really good. Looking forward to tomorrow!! 
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Staring over may be hard but it is easier than staying in the chaos. Congratulations! I've been to the Woodlands. Nice place. Just remember what caused the relapse and avoid that in the future. If you have to build a wall of defense to avoid it, get to stacking bricks. You've got this!
Iām on day 1 again. Iām so frustrated and angry at myself. Iām back stuck in a pit of darkness with suicidal ideation.