Made it two weeks, and I still have the same underlying depressing triggers in my life and really want to swear on here and buy a bottle on my way home….being a very dry drunk right now….
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Congrats on 2 weeks!! That is amazing!! Now comes the tricky part. Most of us have stopped on many occasions. The hard part is stayIng stopped. The alcohol is gone, but the isms remain (the underlying reasons we drink). Most people who enjoy long term sobriety have worked, and continue to work on themselves, so that they don’t get irritable, restless, and discontent. The fear is that these feelings will trigger the desire to want to escape (drink). Furthermore, most of these long term sobriety folks have done this with the help of a recovery program. For the most part I follow AA, however, there are several other recovery programs that others have had much success with. I highly recommend you get started with one. Once you get going, you can see what works best for you.
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Thank you for responding, I really appreciate it!
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Congratulations on 2 weeks sober, one day at a time!. I would suggest your read page 58-63 of the big book. The first full paragraph on pg 62 describes me if I am being honest with myself.
A wonderful, fulfilling way of life without alcohol is possible if you are willing. I hope this helps.
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I know what you are going through Lori… I had a heck of a time getting outta my dry drunk when I started this journey. I agree with Lee 100% on what he said. We need to figure out the root of the issues and deal with that. Working a program helped me immensely! After I did my 4/5 steps it clicked. You can get past this! Believe in yourself and be honest about what’s going on inside your head, and you can recover.
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You’ll get to where you just don’t care for it.
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One of the lies of alcoholism is that this time, it will be OK. But it never is, is it? Play the scene all the way forward. What will happen if you drink?
You'll feel relieved for a short time. But when it's over, you'll be back where you are right now with all the same emotions you have right now. On top if that you will have to start over, carrying more guilt, knowing you accomplished nothing.
It takes more than quitting drinking to get our lives in order. Great place to start are the meeting rooms of AA.
If you get a horse thief sober
What do you have?
A sober horse thief.
Do you see my point?
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I’m at my 2-week mark as well. Many times after work the ONLY thing I wanted to do was buy a beer. Every moment you resist that urge is fuel for another moment. For me I think “Well, yesterday I felt like this. Awful, sad, and I wanted to drink but I didn’t. So I actually can do it, because I did it yesterday.” One thing that’s helped me is to remember that alcohol is like pouring fuel on your anxiety and depression. I haven’t had a suicidal ideation in 8 years, and then one night I get so plastered and work myself into a mental breakdown and try to kill my self. It’s been 8 years, and one night after drinking far FAR too much (my heart almost stopped) I tried to hurt myself. That for me was the icing on the cake, that what I was doing was killing my self, and if I kept it up my depression would only get worse. Never better.
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If I had told fewer important people in my life, it would be more of a cinch to regress 
All good points Elizabeth
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