I have been sober off of everything for 265 days now…I don’t want to drink but I keep having the urge to smoke some bud…I am in California and it is legal…I dunno, I keep trying to justify it but the only reason I am not smoking is because it stays in your system so long and I am randomly drug tested…this is my second attempt at sobriety. The 1st time I didn’t have a drink for 15 months but I did start smoking bud again 6 months into it…I come across articles that support smoking bud- keeping you away from alcohol and hard drugs, and others that are against it saying you are just trading one addiction for another; I don’t know, I suppose I will just try to hit an MA meeting and pray about it. I really wish this urge to smoke would just be lifted. I am 33 and have been smoking everyday since 18 (besides these last 265 days, and the 6 months in my 1st attempt at sobriety)
Hey man… I was approaching 10 years off of drugs and alcohol and recently started smoking marijuana again. I now have 4 days without use. I am back into AA meetings and taking and active part in my recovery again. My alcoholism and addiction doesn’t really care if I choose drugs or alcohol. My mind and body reacts the same way. Best of luck to you man.
Getting intoxicated doesn’t discriminate for me…I just find it easier to be sober.
Hi Daniel. I can only speak of my experiences with smoking weed. I never smoked it like a “normal” person. I never liked to just catch a little buzz. From early on I smoked it in large quantities. I’d go thru a stash so quickly, that eventually I had to deal it in order to afford it. Even then, I always smoked all of my profits and more. I tried to control my smoking many times over the years, but regardless of my attempts I always ended up smoking more and more until I was at ground zero again. I’ve tried to convince myself I can control because I really do want to get high, but I have to look at things honestly today. I know today that it controls me. Like you, I see some things people using it in their recovery. I see it’s legal. I see articles about people getting off hard drugs by using it. Today I choose not to engage in all of these outside influences that only serve to F with my mind. I choose to acknowledge my truth on a daily basis…that I can’t control it. I choose not to overthink this anymore. I surrender. I’m done. I can’t. Just for today.
If you get random drug tests, and you pi$$ dirty it's not gonna make your life any better. Nothing is just gonna be "lifted". Stop waiting for it to just happen by praying about it. Prayer is just a warm fuzzy feeling. Nothing fails like prayer. However, doing stuff with sober people really helps! Get to as many meetings as you can, and make some solid, in real life, friends. Fill in that time with activities that you can do. You gotta rewire your brain by getting focused on other things.
Don't "just try", do it. You can do this, with help. There is free help right there for you, so just take it.
I smoke daily after work. I wish it was legal here. Smh.