2023…is for ME!!
That may sound quite self-centered but what I mean by that is….Grief FREE 2023!! Happy, Joyous, and Free 2023!! God is good 
To say the last few years were challenging is an understatement.. I lost my mother- my best friend AND completely lost myself after that, THEN I lost my one and only sibling- my dear brother Gregory 
. I worried about them my entire life and all I ever wanted was for them to be happy & healthy. Thankfully there were many times of that, yet not very many in their final years. I THANK GOD everyday that he gave them the peace they deserved and clearly needed but that left me confessed, sad, lonely, and completely BROKEN.
Today things are different .. God is the ONLY reason I am here today and didn’t want to give up myself. He has always protected me and put amazing people in my life to lean on and I am forever grateful for each & every one of them- especially those who stood by me the last couple years!! There is no gesture big enough to express my gratitude to my loved ones other than their special place in MY HEART!
We live in SUCH a broken world and I’ve always had very strong feelings about that from a young age. Why- why did I always care? Why did I always have to feel so deeply for others? Why did all this bad stuff have to happen to my family? Why am I still single at 35? The answer is because I NEEDED and still NEED to understand the many walks of life for ME to continue HELPING OTHERS!! The problem for so long though was that I WAS NOT helping myself YET!
It wasn’t my time YET but now I KNOW it is . “For God sometimes uses sorrow in our lives to help us turn away from sin and seek eternal life.” (2 Corinthians 7:10). I have always believed in God & knew he was with me, THANK GOD! However, I never talked about him enough or sought him enough. He showed up here and there along my journey and I know one day he would blindside me and “save” me.. When my brother passed, he showed up 10 fold!!!! I guess he know it was MY TIME! I sought him a bit more than I usually did but in reality I couldn’t turn any direction without seeing and feeling him with me!
Since April 2022 I have been on a journey of self-improvement in all ways and I am beyond grateful & blessed for where I am today!! I have NO REGRETS because the experiences I’ve had in my life made it possible to be where I am today. I look very forward to 2023 & many more years to come!!
Friendly reminder: Mental Illness is REAL, Substance Abuse, Homelessness, Poverty, Jail, etc. ISN’T always A CHOICE!!! Be kind to yourself & those around you, for you never know who’s life you can change or save!!! Be the LIGHT!!
Happy New Year!! Let’s gooooo 2023!! 
