Well well well, here we are, it's the first of May.
A whole month of mental health awareness begins today.
I'm sure more than a handful of you know about its grip on me.
Looking back, I believe I was a child when this started hittin me.
Genetics? Environment? That's what people argue over.
All I knew was I couldn't face this stuff 
sober.
What started out as fun, became self-medicating without a script.
Eventually every ounce of dignity and all morals were stripped.
Now I had more than one problem, and had no idea which was worse.
Maybe my life and fate were doomed by a miserable curse.
If I stopped drinking or drugging, I still couldn't manage my mind.
Even when I sobered up, I didn't know whether to save my face or behind.
The battle took its soul on my mind, body, and soul.
Heck I couldn't even heal with codependency as my goal.
I begged the alcohol and drugs to heal me or kill me.
I was so empty and broken I thought goodness would never fill me.
My once strong faith was shattered like I was Humpty Dumpty.
I felt lost and forsaken, like God had dumped me.
I almost started to find comfort in the misery of rock bottom;
but in that cold, dark place I heard God say’ “I got him.”
I saw a light on a path and I started to walk.
I found compassionate ears and I started to talk.
I didn't know where I was going, but I had to start.
Soon calluses were shaved from my hardened heart.
I began to see things differently and felt an unknown level of joy.
I started to treat myself better, as if I were just a little boy.
An eerie feeling came over my mind and heart as they were cleaned up.
A peace and joy came in a way I could have never dreamed up.
I owe a big debt of thanks to many of you reading this post.
Without your love, prayers, and support, today I'd be a ghost.
Some may not agree with me being honest, it is what it is.
They're probably the type that eats at Geno's and orders wit whiz.
My life got good, then it got gooder and I was humbly grateful.
I'll never forget God and His angels who were eternally faithful.
daBeez 
🫶:sunglasses: