Me and my bf are in long time recovery. Still early sobtiety, but been doing it for a while. He keeps going through my phone and becoming physical, last night he slapped me so hard i have whip lash this morning. He keeps saying it wont happen again, but it does. It used to be only when we drank. Now we are sober and hes still going through my phone, finding reasons to get mad at me. Im emotionally exhausted and i feel stuck. He threatens to cheat and jokes about me going to get drunk. Im getting fed up but im stuck. 12 hours from a place to stay. Im trying so hard the keep faith, and push through. Feel like giving up. I dont think he will change
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Btw I'm not a cheater 100 percent faithful. I'm so fed up and hurt by this sometimes I want to give up completely.
Sounds like a very challenging situation. You have enough to worry about with your own recovery without having to deal with a bf who behaves as you describe. Rather than say you’re stuck and give up, come up with a plan to get unstuck. Regardless off how challenging this plan is, it may turn out to be wonderful
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He definitely should not be putting his hands on you. Recovery is already hard enough. Choose yourself
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There is absolutely no reason in anyway he should be hitting you. Start looking for a way to leave, find a woman's shelter. It will not get better but worse unless he sees a professional for along time. You get some help. It is not acceptable for anyone to hit you or shame you and make fun of you. I pray you recover from this tyrant.
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Me too. I don't like feeling like this. It sucks. And it's exhausting and honestly, I'm miserable enough. Trying to get my emotions back in track, I'm so angry and sad all the time. Then we have someone that's supposed to live me doing this stuff , and it constantly plays in the back of my mind. IDK what to do. I was thinking therapy for me trauma therapy, but there's no point if he can't take the step to try to find help for himself too. We both carry a lot of our past with us. It's not fair to each other. IDK I'm sincere on saying I want to make it work, but only if it's safe. I don't want to live in fear or controlled. Ugh. I don't know what to do....
If this person is sick enough to hit you for any reason IT IS NOT working, not even close. He is not helping you and you are not helping him
Get a sponsor and NA friends and if you can get to a Alanon meeting. The 3 Cs they have are I did not Cause it, I cannot Control it and Cannot cure it. There are men and woman there on a emotional level may be of help. You do not need to tell them you are an addict. Just in another 12 step program. It is also a safe place to cry to move ahead. ODAAT.
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Get help of all kinds and make a friend sponsor adap and get help from them.
There is only one thing to do and I will pray for you to have the courage to leave him. Make the move…12 hours away from him will be great. Start over and start taking care of yourself. Perhaps write down where you would like to be in your life 5years from now and make a plan. I doubt you would tell anyone in your current situation to stay there and take it. He is not loving you.
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You need to get out .. NOW. Easier said than done, I know but no one should be hit EVER. He’s abusive on every level & he’s not going to change. I’ve been through this too & right now your safety has got to come first. Do you have any friends or family you could stay with? If not, as aforementioned look for a women’s shelter. Please get help & get out. I’m worried about you. 
Love is patient, kind, doesn’t keep records of wrongs or right. Honer & respect. Simply love doesn’t put hands on each other.
Hi, Shayna. In your opinion what is best for your sobriety?
Do better for yourself. You don't deserve to be physically assaulted. Be not afraid to step into His plan for you. 
You need to get out now. This isn’t going to change. Not only are you putting your recovery in jeopardy but also your life. He’s not worth to real man puts his hands on a woman, period. You should never be Put in physical harm in a relationship. That’s not love it’s control. Please get out.
Leave and never return? Duh
He won't change. Next time he becomes physical, because he will, call the police. If you can't, then have a backpack ready with three outfits ready to take with you when you walk out the door. Sleep in your car to save for a new rent, sleep near a ymca or gym to slip in free hygeine. Save money. Start from scratch. Volunteer at a shelter for free food. If no car, then buy a sleepong bag and dleep in a bush. Or don't. Keep getting hit. Just showing tough love. Good luck.
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No man should raise their voice at you or hit you. You deserve respect.