Meth addict for almost 8years here homeless 2.Been clean for 3+days .I suffered horribly from amphetamine addiction after falling in love with the wrong guy im Bi. (I have body dismorphia and have depression and BPD/Schizophrenia) was so desperate just to be with some one . I ultimately chose to end my heavy use from it (8 ball every 2 days or 3. Shooting up every chance I got and only sleeping when my body would black out from the days of me being up, 4 days to 13+ in some random gutter, alley or my camp because my quality of life from amphetamine dependence was so bad. It took everything I loved from me, either I lost interest or I pawned things lying to myself that I’ll get them back later. Evictions, homelessness, kicked out of college, lost jobs, lost relationships failing relationships ( I'm currently married trying to save it from a divorce) I tried everything to get off it. I decided and tried to be successful in going cold turkey. I hope I don't have to do the more than one time, basically lived in a sewer for a month, not sleeping for a second, legs restless out of control, all while leaking from basically everywhere and legit wanting to kill myself, the pain of every joint and mucle, in pain from the years/months I pushed my body to its limits from never being able to stay in one spot. I would walk from one end of town to the other 2 times sometimes. Or just walk the streets for 8 hours not being able to sleep... all just to fail and have to go through it again. The responsibility of making clean money ( money that hasn't been stolen, made from illegal sales or stolen items, panhandled or just received in a dangerous way) was too much. I had to look up service that would help me. Have money for the bus fare ( 1 trip is 1.50) and how am I supposed to come up with that when I live in a tent and I made any one who ever trusted me or knew me hate me and allienated them away. Plus being insecure from wondering if I smell from the weeks I have not showered from. It just became too much. I have to go here and talk to this person and then get evaluated. Somehow my friend linked me up with some guy (I was ready to do anything) and we were able to get metha//. Why did I go through all that pain just to relapse. It was only for one night but have you ever been so desperate you'd sell your soul just not to feel anymore. Of being in so much pain and regret that you have to live in oblivion. This will be my 2nd attempt went and bought some weed (don't know what the magic kush would do and honestly I don't care as long as it helps me with the pain of the withdrawals and out of that misery I was in for 3 days of mild symptoms ) I slept 3 days straight. help me how did I get to this point. Apparently the guy I met can try to get it for anyone willing to take that route. No one deserves that, I hope more people become educated to the adverse effects of this drug . I am here to support anyone who is struggling with addiction, please don't hesitate to ask for help or just to talk. Don't know if anyone else has experienced this,will this work out for me? I'm never going to look back . No one said this would be easy. And I know I'm one of many who suffer to addiction . Thankfully,I still have the will and resolve to turn my life around, I'm not giving up. Today is a new day, and I will see if I have any severe withdrawals from this one night of desperate escape
You got it big bro just take it one day at time my man
You got this!! Just for today. You can get through today.
I feel like I just read my ex-husband's story. I hope that you don't have to do it again. The pain of withdrawal is horrific, but you can do this. Hydrate and get medical help if you need it. The stuff they cut these drugs with is so careless.
It will get easier almost instantly. You've made the choice. You can basically sit back and reap the rewards already if your desire to quit is official. And hey, I imagine you're good at avoiding people, places and things when you put your mind to it. 
Prayers are with you Omar🙏
Think about checking in at the county hospital.
I have lived this life I'm doing g somewhat better now but still Messing up I found out that the more I keep my mind busy and with good clean friends I don't even think about taking that hit, line, or shot then the next day and the next passes tell life bits you hard that's where I'm stuck at still haven't found a way to deal with the pain of life but still try every day you got this keep up the hard work we are all here for you if you want to use try to talk to someone on here first
Thank you. Your words lift my spirit
Exactly. Just for today. I know the good Lord has my back. I just have to take it one day at a time
I made a promise to myself and I to God that I will no longer live like this. Thanks for taking the time to reply
The biggest battle is just not using. With it being Christmas and me having nothing to my name, I have a ton of excuses to use. but I will no longer be w victim. I want to be w survivor
Thanks. I'm slowly working on it
I will. I have had so much support from every one on this app. I will keep you in my prayers
You mentioned ‘excuses’ in one of your comments, they are notorious for causing relapse, but you’re aware of this.
No matter what, when you feel like you might be on the verge, please pick up and post about it. Start adding friends here, someone you can message instantly in that moment, who can help create a distraction.
Thank you keep your hard work up man you got this