Tomorrow is my surgery day and my mind wont stop flip flopping from you need this to youll be fine without surgery. Which I know the second part isnt true. Im scared. Im scared of surgery in general, possibility on being on narcotics during sobriety, possibility of getting depression because I can’t do anything other than sit there with my foot up in a cast. I also keep reminding myself that I’m brave and I can come out on top of this. I’ll be stronger if I do, but why does it have to be so hard to follow that last half?
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It can be hard at times. But nothing can be harder than being stuck smack in the middle of addiction. It’ll go by fast and you’ll be grateful you hung in there
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Thank you. The last thing I want is to go backwards. Pain and fear do some s€!$ to my brain I wouldn’t do without. But I made it through surgery. My nerve blocker is wearing off and I mainly feel pressure were they cut into my ankle. I just have two small incision on each side. And metal screw like things and wires. Thank you for your kind words
Don’t sweat the small stuff.. it’s all small stuff. Hope you have a quick recovery
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Serenity prayer my love. Remember what you can and cannot control and give all of it to God to handle. Be in the present moment, prepare yourself for the surgery and for when you come home. Control what you can and no more. God's got you 
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Thank you. I’m trying to not do so but it’s been hard not being able to move much. Really makes the brain go. Thank you for your kind words
Thank you very kindly for the gentle words
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Had emergency lung surgery 6 years ago had to!!!
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Big on mental health
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You got this, Melissa! There's an awesome network of people for you to connect with while you're healing, tons of funny and serious recovery podcasts, meditation apps, etc. Your physical recovery time can be an opportunity for time spent on mental recovery and convincing yourself you are brave and strong (as all of us in recovery are!!)!
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Oh my. I really hope you are doing better now. My Stepdad had to have part of his lung removed. I feel like any surgery puts you in a weird mental position. My pain is bearable, now I’m just worried about not working and having to lay/sit for almost 2 months. I got into a depressive episode last time I didn’t work for months. I don’t want to go through something similar.
Thank you very much for the kind words and encouragement. I feel like now that I’m over the worst I need to find myself some kind of routine.
Hi Melissa! I'm glad you made it through surgery ok. I heard Vermont is a beautiful place. Do they have any meetings near you?
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The good and bad of not working. You can sit with your thoughts, or you can take those thoughts to your Higher Power. You'll have to spend most time sitting with your HP, so how will you spend that time? You can journal, write letters, or rheuminate. I wish I would've journaled more when I had that down time instead of rheuminating.
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I am definitely one to brag about my state. I find its beauty every day and it still amazes me. I do have places I can go for meetings. It’s hard up here because I have to travel farther for them. BUT they do over video meetings too. My program I go to has a group meeting I normally do on Wednesdays. I’m just not very mobile at the moment. Makes it harder when I have to ask for rides. But my family tried very hard to help me get to my meetings while broken
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I’ve been collecting lol all my favorite reading books, coloring books, crafts, my laptop, and my learning books all around my sitting area in the living room. Now that im over the hardest part I need to find myself a routine. And as long as I’m not melting outside I’ll be doing some of my favorite things outside in nature my favorite place
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