When I got sober I thought I was going to die from alcoholism. I also didn't want my kids to see me die that way. I made the decision to get into recovery on May 3, 2012.
After I got sober, my wife who was in active addiction herself kicked me out because she didn't like the new more involved husband that came around with sobriety.
Our kids became the fight. My son left her to leave with me..my daughter stayed with Mom. Both graduated high school the .made their own decisions to go abroad. So I left where we lived and moved to another state between the states they are in.
My thoughts these days are the communications.ateny existent. I reach out and hope for an answer at all. Usually I got nothing. It plays games with my head and I have to remember I can't control anyone else and make them give me the outcome I desire.
Still....I'm an cross addicted fool who forgets and I take it to far in my head.
So sorry says you can start your day over whenever you need to.
I've been doing a lot of restarts. Certain things trigger me. like a song. (Dig is one) Or a movie or even walking by the toy aisle in a store bring back the memories.
Don't know where I am going with this. Just sharing what's on my mind.
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