I’m going through it today. I’m working today so I can do my daily walk to take me mind off him not being here with me.
I’m also Reminiscing from past times when I had countless times to be a much better father to him. To spend those quality times with him instead of drinking.
I can’t event type this post right now. I’m hella depressed. 
I’m supposed to be a great transformational speaker but can’t motivate or coach myself out of this funk.
