My life has become very "full" during the past 120 days or so. My career has been reenergized. All of my personal relationships are evolving; friends, family, loved ones and even the public look different. I’m playing “catch up” with my health, especially after destroying it in active addiction. I find myself overwhelmed at times. I might think “This is too much!” or “I don’t want this; this isn’t what I planned on…” At times I’ve tempted to give in to my addiction. And I don’t necessarily mean using drugs or alcohol. I mean just withdrawing from society and not participating. My addiction can also be more subtle at times, as in not doing my best, or willfully falling short. I’ll tell myself “I don’t feel like it…” or “I’ve really suffered in active addiction. Don’t they know that?! They haven’t walked in my shoes…” I think you get the picture. But today I have a program. I have support group. I have a sponsor, and together we work the 12 Steps. Lastly, I have a working relationship with the God of my understanding, or Higher Power if you like. By using all the tools, spiritual principles, prayer and meditation, Steps, journaling, fellowship, etc, I can navigate the challenges in my life and live it fully, for another 24 hours. Thanks.
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