Last couple weeks have been rough. One event in particular for work. Wine and beer tasting my company needed to sponsor. Hanging with top clients and it’s all about who can drink the most. I used to excel in this situations and I feel like I missed out on a relationship building opportunity. Proud of myself for getting through it, but this ish ain’t for the weak!
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Amen Josh…. I feel ya on that!
I felt this one. I did the longest keg stands and liquor chugs around then could actually speak fairly eloquent afterwards. Oh but after a while it wears and you eventually skip that "fun" phase and go right into blackout/acting like an idiot phase more and more quickly.
That's what happens when you rely on the booze as a social crutch for a decade. Trust me man you are doing it right. Learn some card or magic tricks lol. F drinking.
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Ha! No next morning guilt about possibly ruining the whole relationship at least!
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Right, no more apology tours 
longest keg stands I remember those early days
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No...its rough. Having said that its payoff isn't immediate but you will feel and see it down the road. Think long game.
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Welcome Josh, there are countless of opportunities out there your young your smart, don’t let this weigh on you. You did right, now trust the process, get to a meeting surround yourself with positive people, get a sponsor work the steps it gets easier. Being clean n sober best thing I could have ever did. Once court mandated I hated sobriety I was a complete mess. Today almost 4 years still sober loving life. No more blackouts no more racing thoughts. Life happens on life’s terms. The good with the bad. But guess what I get to be here today for my recovery ❤🩹 not that I have to I get to!! That’s the difference!! Good luck
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