My first day of sobriety is…not starting out well. My cat woke me up a full hour earlier than I intended with his incessant, attention seeking wailing and I COMPLETELY lost my cool. I’m clearly easily agitated and taking this ridiculously personal. I hope the rest of this day goes better, but I have a bad feeling this party is just getting started. I want a drink already. I just need to have some faith, stay strong, and not act like the universe thinks my attempt to be better is funny. Meow.
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That you recognized you are easily agitated is not a small thing and a great step in the right direction!
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Just take it one moment at a time. Just for today stay sober. Worry about tomorrow when it comes. String enough of the tomorrows together and before you know it you have peace. I dealt with anger in early sobriety as well, it does get better. Anger is fear manifesting in an outward way. You are doing a great job recognizing it, and owning it.
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You’re doing great right about meow … don’t pick up no matter what . We are all rooting for you . Get to a meeting as soon as you can and hook up w people in regular meetings . They will share the ups and downs w you .
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Hi Mackenzie, this is my 3rd time trying sobriety and the difference for me now is realizing that alcohol is a LITERAL POISON. I have 104 days under my belt, and knowing I’m not poisoning myself anymore helps me stay sober. Soberful is a great book that helped me early on. Stay strong, and know that if you stumble, it’s not the end! Just start again 
wishing you light and love.
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Thank you, that perspective is really helpful 
Welcome! Glad you are here. You are not alone in your fight! 