Mothers Day. Just a day in a bunch of other days. But it accentuates the very depth of the loss I feel. I’m still confused by the fact that she left this world so suddenly and too soon. I’m so glad that she was my best friend in life. I just wish I felt her more now. She was proud of me for being a good person and how hard I always tried. She understood my pain and struggles like no one else. I drank my face off when she passed. Then one day the doctor told me that I was going to die. I was physically sick and mentally exhausted and about to loose everything. I felt her that day. She was shining bright when I told the doctor that I would stop drinking…in a few days lol. It was a Wednesday morning and I quit on a freshy Friday morning. I have no recollection whatsoever of my last drink. I just know that it was so hard that first day and for many days after. But now I’m 4 years and 6 months sober. It is only one day at a time. It is still a struggle. But now it’s a way of life and it’s the only life I want to know now. My mom would be so happy and so proud. Thank God I felt her so strong that day. Quitting is the only way and to quit you must decide to quit, you must choose yourself and a better life. It was a blessing to stop for more reasons than just myself. As an alcoholic I had no self worth so I could live or die. I needed my mom to help me find the courage. So mom thanks and I miss you in every way possible. I will never understand but I have taken some of your ways and carried you through in my heart and life
I used to get mad when people said I was like you. Now I’m just over the moon
I just hope my mom knows that I’m the best version of myself today. Far from perfect and always growing and learning. Happy almost Mother’s Day y’all
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You’re mom is smiling down at you 
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Sending virtual hugs, Megan.
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Thanks for sharing. Happy Mother's Day.