those two go hand in hand for me. started using adderall thinking it was better because it was prescription. same effect - too much fake energy and using alcohol to bring myself back down. day 5 clean of all and my brain is finally a nicer place to live.
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Same here…I think the adderall is just has hard to quit but it makes me want alcohol and vice versa.
Been there for sure. I’m sorry. Probably best to get all that out of your place if you somehow still have any, and start working on a plan for how to avoid getting more
Wake up in the morning and call someone and find a meeting and be honest with yourself. If you can miss work that is. Maybe talking to your doctor would help, they could give you some guidance on what you should/could do. Good luck and stay safe please.
Ammmeeenn! The last part of your comment is very relatable. I am pretty sure I’m there or well on my way but to be honest I’m “second guessing” it. I just can’t believe that one day I woke up and saw the way. I am not 100% but I feel a strength within me that I never felt before 
Remember, this is a journey to self. The way you see yourself. The way we fear of seeing all the things that are bottled up inside us. The willingness to surrender because we are tired of our way must end. Only then, will we be willing to look within. Only then, we will let go and free ourselves from us. We will then trust the universe to guide us and as a result we feel more free each time we face a part of our past until the past no longer serves you and you will find yourself living in the moment. Everything you are experiencing is the way your life was designed. Be gentle with yourself because you will wake up and see yourself as strong.
Be blessed on your journey.
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At my worst I was a fifth and a half of and two 8 ball a day. It was a very rough lifestyle. I had to realize no human can last very long living that way. I did that pretty heavily for 3 years without any health problems, nevertheless I was eventually going to die if I didn't change. 41 days in rehab and I'm 14 years clean. Good luck bud.
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I was about a quarter ounce of blow a weekend on top of adderall and the occasional line of meth here and there. Everytime I drank it always turned into a speed fueled bender.
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Stick with it Steve!
Thank you Meagan!