My cousin was murdered by Hamas on oct 7th. I am heartbroken and also so angry about what is happening to Israel. My family survived the holocaust (well some did) and they shouldn’t have to worry about their grandchildren being killed for being Jewish! I can’t handle it. I already was suffering from complex ptsd and this is making me have flashbacks to my old trauma and now I get images randomly about the attacks at the music festival and the kibbutz be’eri where my cousin Danny was killed with a grenade. I can’t help but use now.
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That’s difficult. I’m sorry you’re dealing with that. Find someone to talk to. However, struggle or no struggle, saying you “can’t help but use now” is a cop out. You always have a choice.
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Mia I am sorry for your loss. It is terrible. You say you cannot help but use now. Not true. Don’t make this an excuse to use or drink. Using will not make anything better. Stay sober just for today and be there sober to support your family.
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Dear lord. I'm so, so very sorry. I can't know the full extent of your and your family's pain. I can relate, however. You're not alone in the struggle with persecution and loss. Please continue to pray and try find peace with the way things are. You are loved.
Mia, I am with you and so are many others. Hamas needs to be eliminated. Same w all terrorist groups. The people of Palestine need new leadership. Go on YouTube and search for John Bolton and news. He's is the former National Security Advisor of the US and explains exactly what we need (and will) do. Here is the link if this works. Sorry for your loss.
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Bro lol why do you get so hard for arguing with people online? Her cousin just died.
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Totally wrong
You can ALWAYS help not using. I understand your sorrow, I suffer physical pain everyday that is intense enough that I do truly look forward to leaving this body. That said, we believe that our higher power has great purpose and that His purpose can be found in all things. That despite the evil that is murder, He shall make glory of it. We lack the faith and patience to see His will through so we turn to drugs and alcohol. Our lack does not take away anything from His true power.
I will pray for your loss as well as peace and resolution to this atrocious war.
There’s a reason AA has no opinion on politics. I feel for your loss but using won’t help.
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I'm so sorry about this! Using will absolutely not help you though, I encourage you to remember that and not use. If you did, please stop; the only way you'll be able to handle this and heal is with sobriety as a tool and way of life. My heart goes out to you.
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Look up GRIEF SHARE. Support group to deal with GRIEF
So sorry to hear about all the devastating things you've going on. My prayers are with you and your family just know using isn't going to make anything better its only a bandaid that will hurt you more in the long run.
No excuse to use my friend won’t bring anyone back. Very sorry for your loss. But you need to stay strong. Using shouldn’t be a option.
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This is one of the "better excuses" we use to use. HeII I have used all kinds of dumb reasons in the past to use.
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I know that. I had a very very upset time last holiday and my heart felt broken but the people in my recovery circle and here too helped me through it and never used that excuse to drink. I will have 37 months next weekend. But if I didn’t have this site and other recovery friends I don’t know how strong I would have been. Boy we sure use every excuse. 
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37 months, that's amazing!!
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Thank you. It’s not easy but now everything from last year all worked out BUT if I did drink it would have never worked out. My family would have walked away from me. I love my recovery friends.
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I’m praying for you
Mia, how are things now, are you still struggling?