Prayers Andrea, I am so sorry for your loss.
that's incredibly sad. Please reach out to folks in recovery nearby? Thanks. 
Oh my, I am so sorry to hear this, my worst fear. So proud of you for reaching out. Don't let that disease win, it will not help anything, only make it worse. I don't even have the words to describe how much I wish I could take that pain away from you. Fight through it knowing one day you will be able to help someone else going through the same thing after you make it out of the other side. I am def praying for your strength and resolve. So sorry 
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Thank you all for the thoughtfulness. It does help
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I am sorry for your loss, you should reach out to family or your sponsor. It’s not good to be alone for grief.
I am so so so sorry. I cannot imagine the pain and grief you are feeling. My heart goes out to you. I wish I could do anything to lessen the loss.
I have tears in my eyes. I am in no position to tell you what to do or how to feel. I Can tell you from the experience of losing my mother to cancer, that checking out with drugs or alcohol will not let you avoid grieving. The grief stays with you until you sober up and then it kicks in again. The only way to get beyond those feelings and emotions is to work through them.
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My heart breaks for you in the loss of your daughter. What an unimaginable pain. Connection is the opposite of addiction. Stay connected to people to help you through when you feel like picking up.
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I’m so sorry. There are no other words to comfort. Praying for you.
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I wish I had words. All I can say is I am so sorry for your loss. I’ll keep you and your loved ones in my prayers.
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Sending you so much loving and supporting energy.
I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Losing a child just goes against nature.
I can relate to a degree, I lost someone beyond important to me two years ago February 27th. I am still struggling with it because I have yet to let myself FEEL the loss. I relapsed, after seven years, about nine months after this person took their life.
Trust me, the pain of the loss won’t be made better by drinking or using. Not only will you be climbing back from the depths of the loss of your daughter, you will be doing so from the shadowy, destitute depths of active addiction.
Sure, drinking might make you forget and numb you, heck maybe make you feel good-BUT IT IS TEMPORARY. Yes, everything in this life is temporary but something last a lot longer than others. For me, the three things that last the longest in life is…
1)the pain I feel when I know I have hurt someone (usually happens only in active addiction.) 2) The regret i feel when I look at the many opportunities I squandered because living the active lifestyle was more important.
3) the feelings associated with the loss. Loss of people, places, tradition… Loss of absolutely anything.
I guess the toughest things for me to overcome occur when I choose to pick up. When I choose the temporary, “easy” fix.
The only thing I can say is I know what your going through. I lost my son 5 years ago by an accidental overdose, that was laced with fentanyl. My one and only son. 2 years later I lost my best friend/boyfriend. Loss leaves you empty, fill it with meetings, whatever you can and don’t guilt yourself-that’s the worst. Anytime you want to chat, just reach out.
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Oh my goodness I'm so so sorry
Well, drinking is not a solution. It’s another problem you need to connect with people and try to talk your way through this thing and I understand it’s not easy. I’ve lost 2/3 of my family in death already my four brothers two of them died as a direct result of alcoholism, so I understand your pain and if you need me to help you talk through this my name is Michael and my phone number is 727-479-4288
Prayers sent to you 440 308 9021 Richard I'm available to chat or talk
Grief is real it can cause a heart attack talk to your doctor
While I can't imagine a child dying, I'd like to share a story I've lived recently. My ex wife had a baby a couple of years after we had split up in 2013. The daddy told her from the get go he had zero interest in being with her or helping her raise him. So I stepped in and took on the job. Raised him as my own and he grew up never knowing any different. Up until this last year - it was just life as usual. She found a new guy though, and he's as emotionally unstable as she is - and is also a drunk. He's had severe control issues over her and has made no bones about isolating her and my son from me. In July, they finally went stupid with it and just for no reason decided I could no longer see or speak to him anymore. Then began to tell me that its because I was trying to brainwash him, and make him hate his mom. None of which was ever true. I had nothing to gain from this. And all I wanted was an uninterrupted relationship. Bottom line.. He's gone. Since he's not biologically mine, I had no standing to fight for him, and yet I did anyways. Paid 10k in legal fees trying to stay connected. And lost. So... He's gone. For how long? Who knows. Maybe forever. While he's not physically departed from this world, I still walk by an empty bedroom full of his stuff and it guts me every time. He loved me so much and I him. He deserved none of this. The urge to drink has been powerful at times just so I could not have to think about the reality. But listen to me... I know that there's nothing for me at the bottom of that bottle. And you know that too. She'd be heart broken to know that her departure would send you spiraling into a version of yourself that you woukdnt like. And that has been a powerful motivator for me. We have to live. And live productively. In a way that we can keep their legacy in tact, but also in a way that we can continue to be someone they'd be proud to call their parent. It doesn't bring them back. But it keeps us moving forward in a way that can honor their memory. Do yourself and her a favor and choose to live. And not just live. But thrive. She'd want that for you.
Oh my god, thank you for sharing. You are right, she would be heartbroken. She died while under the influence and I know she is sorry. I heard her say, “I’m sorry mom” this afternoon 
I am beyond devastated but know drinking won’t help a darn thing. It never has. Thank you. I am sorry for your loss.
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I’m so sorry for your loss. 
Good rest her soul. Prayers mom🙏