Yeah, I hear you. in my own experience, I had a problem with God because of all the things that happened to me as a kid and as an adult. And I thought in the beginning it was a religious program. But I found out through my own experience. It is a spiritual base program which spiritual principles not religious.
And yes, I hear people speak of God here and there, but it is repeated through the steps a god of your own understanding. The meetings have truly saved my life, and the steps have changed my life. I wish you lived near me. I could take you to some of the me I go to. They are pretty amazing and the people are really amazing.. And yes, the steps have taught me how to become more spiritual. And that has got me to become more religious..
The most amazing thing that has happened is now I am his father with two beautiful children. And those two beautiful children have never ever seen an alcoholic drug addict father through the spiritual principles. They have changed the old man I used to be.. Someday you will give it another chance. The one thing that I know is when I came in and I had a problem with.. they told me I could change the word God to anything I wanted when I first came in God stood for gift of desperation. Then the word got changed to good orderly direction which was the steps and traditions. Then God also forming became a group of drunks. God also became a group of drug addicts.. and those were powers greater than myself.
So I hope and I pray that if you have the wellness to stop drinking or stop drugging. That you give the room another chance. And find someone who can take you through the steps.. I am no longer the old man I used to be.
