See that man in the far right laughing his face off at an AA New Years Eve party? Yeah that's my father. Clean happy pure and silly as always.
Tomorrow is my dads birthday and i’m just sitting here thinking about how much he truly meant to me. he was my rock and my absolute best friend and the person who loved me with a love so deep it felt like it could fix anything. he had three years clean when he passed away from a heart attack in june 2023 and i know his strength is the only reason i finally found my way out of the dark. i finally walked away from the meth on december 31st and i can feel him so close to me on this journey… like he’s the one holding my hand through the cravings and the hard days. he knew i was pregnant with my delilah back in april 2023 and i’ll never forget how much he beamed just talking about being a grandpa. he was so excited to meet her. he left us in june and then she came five weeks early in december and i know in my soul he’s the one who sent her to me right then because he knew i couldn’t survive the grief without her light to hold onto. she’s two years old now and she is the most precious thing i’ve ever known. i see his spark and his kindness in her eyes every single day and it’s like a little piece of him never left. i know he’s watching over us and i know he’s so proud of me for choosing life and for being the mom he always knew i could be. i’m doing this for him and i’m doing this for her. happy birthday dad. i love you forever. i’m staying strong for us and i’m raising your granddaughter to know exactly how incredible her grandpa was. thank you for being my hero and for never truly leaving my side. we talk about you every day and we love you more than all the stars in the sky. happy birthday in heaven to my angel. 
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