So tomorrow I am officially beginning my journey of getting off of all stimulants that I've felt addicted to for many years.
I feel like I'm at a place today of being on one hand excited and happy for myself that I'm making a commitment to change and be sober, but at the same time I also have fear and anxiety because I know that this won't be easy and it's going to take a lot of commitment on my part.
I have tried so many times in the past to get clean from this addiction and have eventually gone right back to it after enough time so it's easy for me to think to myself what will be different this time around.
I feel like there are so many internal and external triggers in my life that keep me stuck in my addiction that it can feel overwhelming and I just really hope that I will be able to handle difficult moments in the best way and that I still have enough willpower and discipline to change this around.
I just know that I'm at a point in my life where changes need to be made and they need to be made now before it's to late. I don't want to live the rest of my life as a prisoner to pills and drugs.
And hopefully this app will give me the added on support that I need right now.
Who knows? Maybe I'll actually become one of those people that changes their life around and lives a sober lifestyle