I have been with husband 3 since 2011. We met in a bar, and were each others bff as well as spouses. I started having really bad "outbursts",(his words) and they hid a hard end on May 2nd 2023. He picked me up and threw me out from his home office into the hall of our home. He told me to stop drinking or i couldnt live in our home anymore. I did. Cold turkey. Fast forward to July 2023, he went off his bipolor meds and had a psychotic break, took our camper and disappeared for 3 months, leaving me to care for a brand new puppy and HIS MOTHER. I remained sober. Developed some health issues due to the 20+ years of drinking. Conquered that. After about 18 months of sobriety, i discovered he has narcissistic tendencies, and without the alcohol to drown it out, I'm super struggling, and believe i need a divorce. We havent slept together in over 7 months. Just needed to vent, my #1 priority for 2026 is to get the heck out of dodge. Thanks for listening. OH and i was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and CPTSD from marriage 1(cheater), and marriage 2(physically abusive cop).
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That is A LOT!! I hope you are ok. Prayers up for you.
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I feel for u. My prayers 
go out to u.
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You have came so far in the past 2 years, so proud of you. I can't speak on your relationship but your health and recovery is definitely a #1 priority. As we evolve on this journey are perception/perspective on ppl,places and things change. Trust your "gut" and remain mindful of triggers. Thank you for sharing😊
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You’ve been carrying more than anyone should have to, and I’m just sitting here in awe of your strength. I don’t know what’s next for you, but I believe you already have the strength to do it. Keep putting you first. You matter too. 
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