When I was out there drinking and drugging. It was easy to see the unmanageability for others. I manage to make their lives, horribly uncomfortable. I managed to push people away. I managed to hurt people I loved. I managed to make my body and life unhealthy.
But after coming in to the fellowship and fully surrendering. My will and my life to care so many things that I never thought would work.
Like rehab. Like a home group. Like sober supports. Like a sponsor. Like working the steps.
In the beginning all the things listed above were powers greater than myself. Now my higher power is God.
I had to fully surrender until I finally did. I was never free.