I didn’t even realize that’s why I had going on until I got sober. Now I’m trying to control every little aspect of everything in my life - the way my partner cooks, the way I get to work, everything has a ritual & I get so uncomfortable, anxious, & frustrated by the slightest deviations. It’s not even like “oh wow Mariah is so detail-oriented, it’s so useful,” from the outside looking in, because my ADHD causes me to be messy & frazzled in addition to over stressed about planning. Y’all I pray every day, but what do I do to manage these symptoms without going crazy? 
Honestly that’s a God thing. Turning things over changes everything. Step 3.
I’ve prayed to give God control of my life for my entire life, but the tics are still there.
Yeah I don’t know. I really thought I had things figured out with God, but It was through AA that I really developed a personal relationship. That close relationship was what allowed me to truly turn it over. How long that took idk, but I went to a meeting every day and other folks rubbed off on me. Before that I was anxious and fidgety and perfectionist and miserable. I wish I could help you more than that.
Thank you, I’ll keep going to the meetings (and therapy lol).
I’ll pray for you too.
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I always appreciate that 
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