My relapses seem most likely to happen when I don't

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#21

I wish you all the happiness in this journey of life Ben. Some days will be harder than others. But every new sober day is worth the next and as much as the last.

You're going to be okay, just remember that you are a miracle on this earth. We all are, and your worth and your value do not diminish by the thoughts or motives of others.

They only diminish if you yourself allow them to, by your thoughts actions and values. But the good news is, that means it is 100% in your control, and you can be as worthy, or unworthy as you wish to be, or to realize or accept.

Thanks for the post and response. Stay sober and god bless :raised_hands:

#22

Your family here cares remember that

#23

Ben, if YOU care, and your 12 Step supports care, you're at least 10 steps ahead of most ppl walking in the door... including me. I'm new, I have basically no one. But I care. And when I build recovery supports, if THEY care.... it'll mean the world to me. From someone recently "out there"....... the chaos still sucks, and forget the bad ppl in the world, the GOOD ppl will tell you to go DIE bc it's easier for them&less paperwork.
Hit pause and sit still for a minute maybe, take a breath, and once the emotion passes, then reassess?
Once you take the "feel" out of it, we're back to what we know. We're powerless, we're screwed on our own, but a Higher Power can and will direct us to better paths and a new life.. in time.. with consistent willingness and effort, if we'll just learn to hand over the reins.
And maybe reach out to others, instead of waiting on them?

#24

I care

#25

I hate that you feel that way Ben and I hope your recovery journey can open the doors to let those who truly do care about you in. Most importantly, your recovery is about your care for yourself. The second we start to recover for others instead of recovering because we truly want to, we set ourselves up for failure. Support is essential yes, but itā€™s easy to give ourselves an excuse to go out when we use the disappointment that we feel from others behaviors as fuel. Even if you donā€™t feel it yet thatā€™s okay. Keep working your program anyway. If you donā€™t have a program, Iā€™d highly suggest you find one that youā€™re willing to explore. Good luck! And hang in there man.

#26

I feel the same way but Iā€™ve learned that I have to care for myself