My whole world came crashing down a few weeks ago. I've fallen off the band wagon quite a few times over this year. I've fallen back into a dark place that I've fought so hard to get out of. When everything came crashing down, I was ready to give up on life. I went back to drinking again. I have quit off and on over the last few months. I don't like the way alcohol makes me feel and I find that I use it as a numbing the pain in life feel. But the reality is, I need to be sober, not just for myself but for my friends and family and all those who really care about me. So here I am, taking my shot at getting sober once again. It has been 4 days since I've had an alcoholic drink and honestly, I don't even feel the need to want to drink. Being around friends and family is really helping with that.
Keep on trying! One more day without it is a plus! For me it really came down to knowing deep down in my heart, I am going to change my life. Probably lose friends, maybe change jobs, definitely finding things to do other than getting buzzed.
Congratulations on your four days working a program of Recovery getting a sponsor and attending meetings is what helps me because I am reminded if I do this every day that I am an alcoholic and I no longer could drink in other words. I practice the first step every day
Relapse do happen, don't beat yourself up over it get back up n get atter
You got this Val we’re all in same boat some more sunken than others
There’s never an “only” when it comes to sobriety. I used to think getting through a few hours without picking up was impossible. Four days is a big deal because I know how hard those first days can be. One thing I learned the hard way was to never try to carry it alone. Every time I stopped reaching out, I ended up right back where I didn’t want to be. Keep close to the people who want this for you too. Post here. Message someone. Message me if you need to. I’m really proud of you for getting back up.
Valerie, it sounds to me like you do want Alcohol out of your life. Try to stay focused on what comes with sobriety-freedom, health, and abundance. Try to take it a day at a time, and never be afraid to reach out if you need help or support. It’s a struggle for sure, but you’ve got this! Be kind to yourself, and know that life isn’t always a walk in the park. One of the beauties of life is truly feeling the things that come in the dark times, because those feelings will teach you that you’re strong enough to weather the storm and make it to the next day. Sending love.