Depression is a crazy thing. For me, it can come seemingly out of nowhere. It used to be a big trigger for my drinking, so I'm always nervous about when another episode will hit and how I'll deal with it. Sure enough, this afternoon after a great weekend, this wave of sadness came out of nowhere and really caught me off guard. I'm really thankful for the tools I've learned in recovery that help me navigate my emotions in a healthy way. Now, instead of turning to booze I've allowed myself to sit with and process the sadness, journal about it, enjoy a hot shower, some tea, a little chocolate and remind myself that this too shall pass. Feeling sad but also proud of how far I've come. And thankful I can process sadness instead of numbing it through drinking, then having to deal with the guilt and shame that would inevitably follow. 
Thoughts think , feelings feel and both we try to avoid the drink and learn to truly deal.
Showing yourself compassion is really the best way, so good job for journaling, showering, tea & chocolate!!! Radical self compassion is the only way out of shame & guilt
So I just signed up for the app, brand new and your post was the first thing I noticed.
Right away I felt the feel good energy that only being in recovery has given me! I’m very familiar with the sudden onset of SADs, sad, angry, or depressed and it can be debilitating for me if not dealt with early. Thank you for both the tools you shared and the vulnerability you showed to share as well. I’m sure you’ve heard this before but I like to say you get out of your recovery what you put into it. Your obviously putting in the work and it’s inspirational for others to know that tools and strategies work when utilized, especially early in recovery!
12 steps can be useful in developing emotional sobriety too. I’m working on it. And I’m further along than a year ago after my wife committed suicide and I moved to a new bigger town. Keep coming back dear:love_you_gesture:
Well done. I can completely relate. It’s so brave to write about your feelings and depression here and in your journal. Sounds like you’re doing it right. Keep up the great work. Reward yourself with more chocolate!!
Molly , this is very common…ups and downs for no apparent reason….know its not real , know it will pass and get yourself to a meeting!!!!!!! Allow the people there to love you until you learn to love yourself and amazing things will result!!!!!! Keith Kayle