This is the hardest thing I’ve ever written. It started innocently with a girl I was dating. We liked to smoke crack and hook up. It was a blast but then we had a falling out. The urge got me and now it’s a habit. I can’t tell my family… at least not yet.
I recently moved and don’t have any local friends yet. I am hoping to find some support on here. Crack is ruining my life.
Hello James, I'm glad you're here. There is a ton of support here for sure. The key that has made the most difference for me is realizing that the physical urge to use is caused by our bodies purging the poison out, and the delay that it takes for the body to get everything balanced again. That and the fact that the perceived benefits of using are really illusions. Putting those two together has helped me, when I'm making a choice on what to put in my body, to choose something that will have real benefits like a healthy meal, coconut water, or just clean water. You can move out of addiction into freedom for sure, starting now if you choose. Glad you're here brother.
Thanks Josh. Super helpful and your support is greatly appreciated!!!
Honestly I would tell your family/friends bc they (I am assuming) love you and likely will help support you in breaking free from crack. It really helps when your loved ones are encouraging in this journey to recovery. I used to be addicted to heroin. I was so addicted and my family had absolutely no idea bc I was doing great in all my college courses. Finally one day I was so tired and broken down I decided I should probably just die at that point. But a tiny urge inside me said no, just get ahold of the people who care about you and be honest. I knew I needed help but I was so messed up on heroin I couldn’t even think straight to figure out how to get help. Family/friends will likely appreciate the honesty and respect you more eventually for being truthful. Crack is a drug that QUICKLY gets out of control and snowballs your life into chaos and fear driven thinking. Stay with the light and love. Give yourself a chance. You deserve to be clean/sober and at peace.
I am doing good so far. If it gets worse I’ll let them know.
You're reaching out for help and that is good. You're probably not going to be able to stop on your own so the best thing you can do and probably the most inconvenient thing that you can do is to check into a detox somewhere and try to go through a treatment center.
People that have addiction problems like you and I are nowhere ready for any relationships. I strongly advise that you stay out of relationships for a couple of years until you get to know yourself and you get some serious sobriety time under your belt.
That's my advice based on many years of experience!
You're alive, so there is still hope.