So I know what the answer is going to be mostly and that is to go to rehab but I am in a situation that I don’t feel it’s possible I work on the road like traveling and I am the main provider for my family and I have been several times a last year to rehab for meth and I ended up with a new addiction (fentanyl) recently and I am scared to death I can’t stop without getting severely sick and I can’t afford to lose my family and my wife has had enough and I would not blame her one bit for leaving if she did but if she leaves me I won’t be able to make it I know that sounds stupid and codependent and petty but like this is all I got is my kids and my wife and I’m so scared like I’m a grown man and I cry myself to sleep every night and I sometimes think that that would be easier now that I’m suicidal but I just want to be a queen and I just wanna be happy and I just want my life back and I just need somebody in my life to be there to help me get through the first 30 ,60 or 90 days whatever I just need somebody To talk to me on a regular basis
I shoulda gone to rehab and didn’t. I just made it to 30 days struggling hard every day. And that is with people to talk to. Fentanyl is hard to get away from without rehab, I been there. I really feel for you but I think at least a week in rehab just to detox would do you good.
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If you know what the answer is… first take a breath man. You need to fix YOU. I know the fear of loosing everything. None of it is petty, it is a deep seated heart wrenching fear. It sounds like you hit your bottom. Now the action of climbing out can happen. What’s the alternative? Could you loose everything? If you do nothing you most likely will. Having courage isn’t having no fear, it is having the fear but still doing what needs to be done. Detoxing off fentanyl is dangerous. You need medical help. Your job… there is plenty of work out there. Showing your wife and kids you want to be clean by taking action is monumental. You know what needs to be done. To hel! With everything else right now.
You need medical detox for the fentanyl at least the 7 days. I went out in March I lost everything. My buddy was there in time to save me from dying. Fentanyl is no joke go to detox. It will help you so much more. Show your wife you want to change.
I’ve only been on it 2 weeks and very little
I know how bad it is I just got off of it about 3 months ago I didn’t use MAT or anything I am going to try to curve the withdrawal with kratom and just go through it here and if it gets bad I’ll go to the er
I just don’t want to hurt my kids and her feelings this using stuff has been back and forth for 3 years and she is fed up and my kids were just starting to love me again and I let my emotions get the best of me during a fight and I used it as an excuse to do meth and then I ended up at the pill guys house
I know it’s hard but if you do nothing, you will lose everything.. and you know it.. it depends on how much you want to be clean and how much you’re willing to lose..!! Call on God.. He still answers prayers.. start some kind of a program..
I’ve been talking to him all day but I just have to get through this month and I can go I have this contract job and it’s over in 30 days and then I have as much time off as I want I just have to make it 30 days so they don’t lose our house
I’m so stupid
Play I knew I shouldn’t of moved out of my sober living house But my wife and kids were living in her sister’s basement and I finally was able to get them into the house because her sister is kicking them out and my wife is in recovery and works at a rehab and she was so proud of me and they were so proud of me and I got This super good paying job and and then I blow it I let the devil tell me lies and I believed it
I deserve whatever I have coming to me I have to finish this contract no matter what I will just quit and Withdrawal last time I had been using for three or four months and I Call certain way and I was sick for five days and I went to the Oxford house and I made a three month there and then I got this job I can go through the withdrawals alone
You have come to a pint that you may need detox. I’m not going to say rehab. Would it help this time? Would you build a program to stay sober? If so then yes another rehab.
Oh ok. So the sickness and withdraw isn’t that bad? Only you know what you can handle, personally I would still go to detox if it was me.
Yo Chris, you have good intentions, I can see that. I really feel for you man, I wanted to do what was right for me and my old lady too. Getting sober was the obvious solution. I ran my gf through the emotional ringer alot, getting sober then using, over and over. I had alot of guilt around my actions and fear around what I might lose. So what do I do when I have these unpleasant feelings? I used. I'm a alcoholic/addict the way I managed my feeling is to use. My solution was to use. Without drugs and alcohol I'm left with a whole lotta problems with no answers. Yes, detox from the fetanyl, in a safe way, don't think of the detox as a way to punish yourself. It's just the next step toward your goal of getting sober to be there for your family. I had to consider outside help to find a solution to my problems and emotions. I tried rehab, I tried psychotherapist, I tried medications and I tried working the 12 steps of AA. What worked for me was the 12 steps but try to find whatever works to have you not living in fear/resentment/guilt. I had to let alot of things go. The steps helped me do this.
If you want to know more about the 12 steps and how they helped me I'd be happy to talk with you, I'm wishing you the best 
Your life is more valuable than any job or reason to not get to an extended care rehab facility.
I completely understand what you're going through I was on fentanyl for almost 3 years and I am a day 30 sober I would recommend I'm not sure where you're located but in Colorado there's a good rehab program for people that have Medicaid and he has a detox where I went through is called Cedar it's part of UCHealth. Everybody around me is dropping like flies and you really need to get off of it before you do because you never think it's going to be you. Once the smoke clears and you're mines free from fetyanol
do you understand how much it's been running you