My boyfriend has seen first hand how alcohol and I aren’t great.. and yet he’ll bring it home bc “he doesn’t have a problem” w it… and then I find where he’s hiding it and I can’t help myself. I feel so weak bc I was doing so well but then one night I slip and then search and find it. Idk I just can’t help but to look for it..he’s so mad at me but at the same time I’ve told him.. if it’s here I’ll find it and drink it. Idk I’ve just been letting myself and him down but it’s so hard…
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I can totally relate. People that don't suffer from our disease will never understand the insanity of it. You aren't weak and you're not letting anyone down. He should respect you enough not to bring it in the house especially if he "doesn't have a problem with it"...
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Maybe have separate living spaces for a while. Not ending the relationship but also not being in the house around it could help.
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Hi Sara, I know this all too well. Sadly I had to remove myself from my home bc he would bring it in. I've tried to have him hide it, but always found it. Firstly, he should know better than to bring it in the home if he knows you have a problem. Secondly, you should consider if that relationship will serve you in the best way. Just bc "he doesn't believe he has a problem", if he cared enough about you, then it should NOT be a problem to not bring it in the home. I wish you well with that situation as it hits close to home for me. We are still married but need to figure out if this is moreso an issue of going in two different paths in life. This is your life and fortunately for all of us, we get to call the shots and have a right to be selfish in that regard. 
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You have to at all cost take care of yourself. Your future depends on that. Your boyfriend either doesn't realize how hard it is to stop or he has a problem himself and chooses to drink. Either way If he is simply choosing to drink he doesn't really care about you.
Prayers always 
Hi Sara! I think Sam is absolutely right. You are beginning the most amazing journey of your life! If your relationship is meant to survive then it will. But right now it’s not the best situation for your sobriety or spiritual health. If you can’t come to an agreement and stick to it then a timeout might be in order. You might feel like you’re losing something in the beginning but I promise you that feeling doesn’t last forever. And it’s completely worth it!! And maybe he finds sobriety too and your relationship becomes the stuff dreams are made of!! You win either way!!!! Put your sobriety first. Above everything else and you can’t lose!! You can do it Sara!!!!!
I can tell you from first-hand experience dating someone that doesn’t care about your problems isn’t going to work. If he doesn’t respect the fact you can’t have it around he doesn’t have respect for you in general.
I walked away from a 2 year relationship because my ex didn’t understand why I had to go to so many meetings at night. I got sober in the relationship. I chose myself. My needs weren’t as important as her needs. She wanted to marry me and move in with her. I stayed sober while finding out she jumped into a relationship within 2 months of our break up. She went on to marry her rebound less than 8 months later. I dodged a bullet and I’m blessed that I chose myself and my two daughters in the end. Your boyfriend needs to respect you by not bringing alcohol in the house. He could benefit by going to an AA meeting with you or an Alanon meeting so he understands our disease better. Many guys I know bring their significant others to meetings so they understand what we suffer from. Good luck
Remember to work the steps and practice the principles.
I am nosy and would love an update on this relationship. I hope y’all figured out a way to make it work.
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Haha I’ll message you tomorrow
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Sounds like he needs help too.
Been there multiple times. One partner bringing home the booze and attempting to hide it will always eventually fail. I had an Ex keep hers in a locked box but when the desire was there, I still got in the vault 
My former partners and your current guy are not understanding how addiction works ( and good for them not understanding)...they must understand that it is a disease and requires a certain amount of attention, compassion, and Cooperation to keep the disease under control. It's just not sounding like a very good prognosis with this fella ,🤷. I'm to the point of only dating sober gals to avoid this very inevitable conflict with a "casual drinker*. Regardless, I hope it works out, good luck .