Okay so for starters i am 2 years sober ...its been a long hard fight but i finally feel free of my habit ....okay so we live next to a rehab that sucks, and it just enables its people to use fentanyl and meth (my doc before sobriety) so my question is how do i deal with this hatred i feel for the drugs but still keep being kind and compassionate to those who do use because im struggling to not hate seeing people exactly where i used to be...overdosing turning blue and it seems like every week someone collapses outside from an overdose were trying to move but wont be able to until june. My problem im having is i remember people being so kind to me while i was using i know there were people who werent as kind but i dont remember them i only remember the ones who held out their hand to help me when i deserved none ...how do i be that same person kind compassionate and strong ... when i hate drugs so bad because of what they did to my life.... life is better now but i want my views of people to get better because i hope with all my hope things will get better for them too.
Have you tried journaling about it it might help to write it all down and get it out
I have to pray about stuff like that. You’re already kind and compassionate. Don’t let your hatred of drugs deceive you into thinking you hold the same feelings for the people who use them. It would be super hard to live next to that, but if you focus on hope, that is what you’ll see. If you focus on the darkness, you’ll find it around every corner. Bless you and congratulations on your recovery. That’s amazing.
It makes sense that what you’re seeing outside your door hits hard. You care, and that’s why it hurts. You can hate what the drugs do and still care about the people caught in it. Keep your boundaries, protect your sobriety first, and when you can, lead with the same kindness that was shown to you. That’s already in you.