Im new here and im struggling. I once made it almost 10 years clean and sober....had a traumatic event and started drinking again... this was 6 years ago.... then the drugs start creeping back in and now thats all i want... i had a blow up on november 10th and decided on the 11th id try again... i did decent.. then my grandfather passed very suddenly on december 28th....i moved into my grandparents home this summer to help take care of them (they raised me because my mother is a heroin addict) so i wanted to be there for them.... anyway...this triggered me again and i started drinking again... i feel like ive lost everything in my life (my kids my career my home ...my sanity) i just feel so lost... i dont know what im supposed to do anymore...
Keep fighting 
As long as I keep pushing forward I know I have a chance. Never give up no matter what
Pick yourself up and start again. You know what to do, you just have to figure out where you went wrong and get help to get yourself past that. You can do it. You might have lost something right now, but you can get kids, a career and a home again. Stop counting yourself out
Dust yourself off and pick up the pieces. Speak positivity into your life everyday you wake up and take self inventory before you go to bed at night.
Do you have someone that is there to help you ?
Welcome,,
Continue reaching out, continue showing up for yourself, find a faith in a God of your own understanding…. We’re all here to help
Are you working with a sponsor?
I learned not to fight alone.
I’m here if you want to talk