3 days sober. First meeting tonight. Feel good but dull at the same time. Took my first drink at 14ish- turned 28 10 days ago. Only time I’ve ever stopped was during one of many incarceration periods. I actually WANT to quit at this point of my life…I just wonder if I’ll feel normal. I feel normal when I drink. Funny. Carefree. My drive feels stronger?….I’m tired of it being a pillar to my personality. I dont have any friends- maybe drinking played a role in that. I’m not working right now, drinking definitely had a part in that…and my mental is…idk. I feel like crying for hours but I “just keep swimming” so im just looking around at this point. Maybe someone that knows better then me might be able to help. Anyways…thanks for reading.
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Congratulations on 3 days. My drug and alcohol use was who I was then one day it wasn’t. Takes a minute for it becomes normal and your personality will be better
Hang in there and put in the work! Life will get better
Thank you!
Thank you
I love that you said you WANT it. I love that you said you’re tired of it. Your true self is fighting to come alive. This is the real adventure. Theres a lot of healing ahead and things will get better. 
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I'm with you Brittany! 3 days here as well. And also having the same outlook on life right now.
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Congratulations on 3+ days:muscle: you’ve got this if you want it, be it 1 minute at a time, 1 hour at a time or One Day At A Time:muscle:
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Congratulations Brittany! You made a decision to make your life better! I am proud of you! The brain fog and emotional roller coaster are normal it will take the body a while to get all the hormones back in line, but it does happen! Reading the “big book” can be helpful, especially “the doctor’s opinion.” It helps explain the physical responses you are going through! You got this! Every moment you stay sober is a win!
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Brittany you are so strong, you got this! I’m 27 and I am in a very similar situation, but I’m now 62 days sober! You got this!
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I’m excited for you!
I’m 3 yrs 4 months sober and i attribute that to working a recovery program in AA. You can’t go wrong doing the steps with a sponsor. Happy, joyous and free awaits you!!
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Thank you and congratulations 
Congrats just making that big decision to want to 
i walked into rehab 3 years ago angry at the world, nervous, scared, all in the same minute..I started at 12 and now 36 I was drinking 2 liters a day and still thought I wasnt bad..one thing I can say bc I was in that same spot when I wanted help..not gonna lie the hardest step wanting the help and remember one thing and im sure we all can relate u feel alone but u dont once you start bc u have a connection with everyone there..just like the advice we are extending is only pieces we picked up during the journey..you wont regret the decision itsaways better hindsight but I was blessed to have people to empathize with bc it sometimes is power in numbers...u can always reach out and i can share some answers of questions u may have as I have relapsed most of my life and eventually stuff sunk in after 4th time in long term rehab..always here to help ease worries and anxieties u may be having but u got this one step at a time 
Hang in there any way you can! You'll find a new norm in sobriety, one that will set you free.