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I’m over 2 years sober from alcohol and also new on this app. I was on Reframe, but I couldn’t keep up with the daily tasks and everything, mostly because after 10 months of being sober, I didn’t need them.
For my personal goal, I was using the tracker to get to a year, then to watching the numbers go up and then a year and a half, then two years. For the cause of the sobriety, was for my family and my health.
Once I started drinking, I didn’t have a stop button and it turned into violence towards my husband. I refused to drink around my kids, unless it was with dinner and they were going to bed shortly after. I refused to accept that I had a problem, because why was I the cursed one who couldn’t drink normal and stop. Why did I turn to violence when my husband told me to stop drinking its time for bed when I wasn’t tired. Because with my curse of not wanting to stop, alcohol turned into an energy drink. Once I started drinking, after my second one, I always got a second wind and wanted to keep going and I didn’t get tired.
Quitting was the best thing that had ever happened to me. Next was the cigarettes, because I realized that I also felt hungover the next morning due to cigarettes. Not fun.
There’s a bit more to the story, I tried quitting several times, it never stuck. This time it did, because of my husband and my mom. They would treat me weird because I had an issue with drinking and would treat me as though I was cursed. This time they became my support and would respectfully not drink around me and have since slowed down and /or quit. I have also realized I am not cursed, but absolutely blessed that i cannot drink like I used to. I have so much to live for and are becoming a much better person…. Slowly. Still in the process. I have watched too many drunk people make mistakes, that I have learned can ruin so many relationships. We are watching my husband’s step mom ruin herself for alcohol. I also recently cut ties with my dad and his mom. Now, my dad’s mom doesn’t drink and never has; however, she is a horrible person, that I will not have myself nor my kids involved with.
So, I didn’t go to rehab. I didn’t do a 12 step program. I did it myself and I worked for it. Reframe helped me, but now I feel like I don’t need it or need to pay $14 a month for my sobriety. I also feel like I don’t need to pay a therapist to listen to my story. My story is much longer and it sucks.
I’m very thankful for being sober. I truly am. We own a business, I got my GED while getting a business certificate, and we now homeschool our kiddos. My husband and I talked about it and now I’m going for my AS in Business Administration and I start next week. I’m doing much better than I was…. Including last year. I am so thankful I quit drinking over 2 years ago, because I wouldn’t have done any of this.
If you took the time to read this, thank you, it means a lot 🥹

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Congrats on your journey...for me this time feels different .I am different. I don't live that way anymore and yay to us

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Welcome! Just for today!

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