New to app, and feeling very hopeful. I have been

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New to app, and feeling very hopeful. I have been battling cocaine addiction for 10 years, it has been very consistent. This past weekend I ended up in the hospital with the most severe panic attack I have ever had. I was on my floor, could not move and I knew my life was over. I honestly felt I was inches from death. I know it was anxiety, looking back I wish I hadn’t called 911. I wish I could have breathed my way out of the damn attack, but I could not. I keep remembering that feeling and it makes me shake. I have never felt more scared in my life. In the hospital I thought, if this is not enough for me to stop, nothing will be. No one knows about my problem except for my partner so I felt like this outlet might be very helpful.

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#2

You’re at a good start. Now try and find a meeting in your area. Or call a hotline. You’ve begun the right thing.

#3

Just found a virtual NA meeting to go to this week! This is going to be hard work, but I am ready.

#4

Do you have zoom?

#5

I have the app! I have used it for work stuff.

#6

Asking for help, admitting you have a problem… you’re already a warrior! Keep going and taking the steps towards staying clean. Start going to meetings, get a sponsor and begin this new life! I’ve been doing it for over 2 years and I promise you, it’s much more fun :partying_face:

#7

Thank you so much. I know the future has to be more fun than this addiction has been

#8

Best of luck on your journey. Prayers sent for healing and strength

#9

Calling a hospital may have been a great idea. Talk to a doctor about the issue and try to get what help you can finding a detox facility. Get into a program and build a network. There is a ton of help out there and all you have to do is speak up.

#10

It is! You have the world at your fingertips, just one day at a time… it’s work but it’s so rewarding :slightly_smiling_face::slightly_smiling_face:

#11

Kevin R I’ve struggled longer than that my friend. I have od’ed on panic attack meds due to my crack addiction! Listen never give up. My clean date is 1/26/21! 7 months 5 days! Thought I would never stop, lost everyone n everything! It’s all back plus Grace n Mercy!!!